Monday, 9 January 2012

Adelea in my dream

I’m at Asan grandparent’s house. Something had happen which make us went back without Adelea. So, at that time, she supposed to be with my parents at Segamat. When i woke up, i saw my mother. I’m a bit shocked, because why suddenly my mom’s here at Asan grandparent’s house & i asked “where’s Adelea?”

My mom answered “she’s in front (hall) with Asan”.

i walk quickly to the hall & saw Asan is playing (talking) with Adelea. I saw her hand waving (like what she always do when we talk to her). My God, I’m so excited & walk even faster. But, when i about to reach them, i say like this to myself “kan ke aku tidur tadi?”.......after that, all the images gone & me, woke up & still feel the excited feeling.

My God, this excited feeling really tortured me. i really miss my daughter, & now she’s in my dream, but gone without me being able to touch her. DAMN!!!!! I’m almost reach her, sikit je lagi nak sentuh dia. Bagilah peluang this mother dukung & tell her how i missed her so much. Why did in my dream i think like that???

Last night, i still can control myself. But today, i can’t control my emotion. I called my mom hoping i can hear her voice. But, before i tell anything to my mom, i cry.......

(Please, i want to forget that dream. it really tortured me from inside)

5 comments:

  1. Tak tau nak ckp apa..Sabar ye.. Kau sgt kuat ros. X dapat bayangkan kalau aku kat tmpt ko..

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  2. @suzi - thanks fren...kadang2 aku rasa aku cukup kuat nak berjauhan, tapi ada ketikanya, aku macam budak kecik.....

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  3. hmm..kak..kite tau...pernah ngis 2mlm berturut2 rindu kat izzul..tpi org kate jgn rindu anak melampau..nnt anak pon rindu kat kite n buat dia meragam..xtau mana kebenarannya, but yes..2 hari tue izzul meragam..nangis jek nak dukung..asal letak nangis..

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  4. @yuzai - tak hari2 macam ni..haritu je sedih tak dapat control emosi sebab mimpi macam tu..skarg dh ok dh...kalau kite blog entry sedih2 tu maknenye memang dah x boleh control cembeng...hehe..agaknye, selagi adelea xde depan mata, entry sedih jela...haha

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  5. kite pon ngis sbb masa tue ada baju izzul yg blom basuh..gatal2 amik baju tu kat bakul bawak tdo..terus mencurah2 air mata..2 hari tdo ngn baju dia 2hari ngis..pastu terus basuh simpan xngis dah..hhuhu

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